Mean It

You're such a nice person.

You're not ugly, you're not stupid, but you just look down on yourself.

You're actually a sweetheart, and your young heart is still innocent.

That's why you don't know how much I've been into you.

You're just not one of a kind. There's no other like you, for me.

You're always there for me, even if I can't be with you all day because we are so distant.

But however, I know you're there. You're my bestest and I like the way you are.

I won't ask you to do anything or to say something I want.

I won't change a thing. To me, you're everything.

I know I'm maybe lucky to have someone like you.

But I can say that you, maybe, are unfortunate to be destined with me.

I'm not beautiful, I'm not special, and I'm just not good enough.

If you look around, I'll never be like them. I can never be that good, even if I try to.

I never meant anything for you. I had no place in your heart.

I was just someone standing next to you. You never gave me any reason.

People who knew that we were together, they'd think that we were just fine.

And you were too innocent to know what's going on. I couldn't blame you.

But being just fine, it isn't what I ever wanted. I wanted you, not to be just fine.

We both were just completely wrong. You were wrong about yourself, and so was I.

I thought the things we had been though had a meaning.

But it wasn't as meaningful as how I thought it would be.
It was just... meaningless for you.

When you know I take everything seriously, you still take everything slightly.

You've been honest. You never lied, and I know you never would.

You never covered up anything that you feel or you think.

I always knew what you really meant, what you really wanted.

I am just so thankful to have an honest person like you. But still, you don't realize a thing.

You're not sensitive about me and my feelings. You're only sensitive about yourself.

You were never aware, never be alarmed when you softly hurt me.

It still hurts, even if you've never wanted to.
But still you did, and you can never realize it.

I shouldn't tell you things like this, right? But how do I tell you?

You are just not receptive, and I don't know how to express my feelings into words.

It's just too hard, if you want to understand even just a bit.

Only if you could see, I was the silver lining you had never realized.

► UGLY

I'm trying to smile brightly but I don't like it

I'm not pretty, I'm not beautiful
I'm trying to sing but no one is listening
I'm not pretty, I'm not beautiful

Why am I this ugly?
What must I do so then I can smile as bright as you?

I'm getting angry again, why can't I ever be perfect?
I simply blame my ugly face and punch the mirror

Don't look at me

I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere

I want to escape
This world is full of lies

Don't tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly heart may even come to hate you

Don't force me to talk that I'm not right for you
The thorns inside that gaze seem so cold

Don't come closer

I don't even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere

I want to shout out loud
This world is full of lies

I think I'm ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her, I wanna be pretty
Don't lie to my face telling me I'm pretty

Because I know I'm ugly

All alone

I'm all alone

I'm always all alone

There's nothing by my side

Next to me, there's no one to embrace me

Or even just to tell me everything that everything will be okay

Just because I am ugly



>> thanks for 2NE1, this song is so damn good

A Little Letter

Hi! I'm not a stranger. Call me Caep.

I love reading, writing, and dreaming.

I spend time speaking by hours.
It seems like I am so talkative and such a know-it-all, but yes I am.

Watch out when I speak in foreign words, they are mostly nonsense.

Like it or not, this is me. I'll always be myself because I am just who I am.
I won't change a thing.

I'm just a girl trying to not get lost in time and space.

I give up whatsoever it takes to be with you. That's all I wanna get.

All I need is just attention, honesty, and kindness. You're the only one I wanna lean on.